sleepless in Seattle

I believe that when Einstein "invented" his famour mc(square)... he might not have thought that it all boils down to the matter of "money". The distance of traveling, the speed, the amount of load you could bring. These are all the money matters when you are traveling. Even though we know that light travel at fastest speed, that does not solve our problem that we still unable to make ourselves appear at two sides of the world with low cost solution.

The places may be just a flight away. The american might not understand that it is really the airfares that are stopping in between?? The britain would probably complain about the time on the planes.

I am in the dillemma. The go and no-go.. Both are not wise choice. Iwill miss a lot of good memories that is going to happen at here. On the other hand... losing a opportunity to gain new experience out there..

It is probably the little lovely hut in the snow. All the questions lead me to a sleepless night, except that I am not at Seattle. When I have not consider so many factors, decipher so many messages... Could I just simply believe whatever I was told. Or should I at least keep my eye open. The new cost structure, the new calling card, the new expense claim.. The new en-slavement policy..No sign of getting better.

Shall I again be deported the far far country as a slave again ??

fundamentally unmarriageable

i think i am fundamentally unmarriageable.. it is just the spontaneous idea in my mind..
with all the math class i went through all these year while schooling, i simply know that the odds of two persons in love is freakingly small.
Yet, that is not sth. that I am surprise of. I would accept that if in our eastern culture, we do accept marriage that not based on love (or at least feeling to each other ), it did not occur to me that far at the other side on the earth, my lovely american friend is able to accept the concept so well.
Pardon me, that after so many years of imperialisme .. I simply believe that my people are much down to earth (aka materialistic and realistic), we strive to survive , making sure we are not going to die with famine. Hence, it is acceptable if we consider wedding a ceremony and marriage a companion ship to life.
I would want to believe that, at the other end of earth. The "westerners" would be more romantic, reluntant to accept anything less than "love".. apparently it is not.

May be.. it is the time, or the place. I am not ready to believe that the za za zoo butterfly when you fall in love will die eventually. If that so, why would I get a fixed partner in life ??
NONETHELESS , i know that someday i would regret. Those majority out there are choosing to settle with marriage, they must be correct. Otherwise they will not be the majority.


Somewhere out there ....

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the chicken little dance with numa numa

who would thought that it all starts with a funny video clip..

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Numa_Numa

NumaNumaDance.com - The original numa numa clip.

The numa numa song is said to have a big hit across the globe. Further now, with the new disney cartoon launch the chicken little, this Numa numa song is going to be a big hit.

You can actually make the cute little chicken dance for you at
http://disney.go.com/disneypictures/chickenlittle/

Attracted by the move , (yeah.. the move ) which reminds me of 80's disco scene... where donna summer were the queen. I wish the little chicken little wil make a success .
It is always happy to know that, dreams come true for someone.. especially the someone with kindered heart.


I can't tell what is the magic embedded in the song.. it just make me feel like dancing.. and howling with it. NO offence, the lyrics may means something very deep.. to me, it is the joyful yelp.. (?)

the night is still young

You might be wonder.. what sort of life there for people who live at a place where temperature never fall below 28 celcius... It is hot and humid. I might be not honest to you if I tell you it is a blessed. Yet, stories from friend make me learn that, cold countries people will like the warm (note: not hot) weather all the time.. becoz you can do something like this.. .




















Yeah.. could you feel the warmth.. After several days/months/years of hiding inside my shell.. There is one day, I stepped out to the world. I realize that despite the weather is still as HOT as it was. The people has learnt their way to enjoy the most of it. Hence, when you find that it is time for you to stop reading blog, and do something real. I suggest you to bring ur friends and family for dinner outside.. or better yet a picnic at park.

time flies

time flies again.. faster than i tot. it is now 2005.. and you are officially OLD>.
life is keeping it old past , slow and unfortunate.

why life is unfortunate. + some fortunate --

Time flies

It shocked me when I found out that it has been more than 0.5 month that I didn't update here. Time is passing by faster than anything. Faster than it take me to think of something to bla here.

I was busy with a lot of office procedures, application, routines, and many other so-call black and white ways lately. Can't even remember how many signatures i have put, can't remember how much quotation i get. All these had made me down to the place that i can not work efficiently. I was worried.

Worry about everything that can goes wrong. Even for very standard procedure, thing can go wrong, if it wants to. I know I am worried about something that out of my control. Something that i shouldn't think of at the first place.

Yet, if all the worries can go away, then i won't be writing this part.

The next thing i know after i have a satisfying answer from previous problem, is new coming problem. Life is not like wind surfing, the wave has not stopped at all. It keeps me challenged all the time.

May be it is the way i interpret them. All the waves are meant to be fun but not worrying stuff.
When will I start to learn to take on all these stuff and enjoy ? I wonder.

Something..

It is a miracle word. It refers to all things. It means nothing. Something special can means you have everything so special, it is just i could not spell it out loud. Something special can also means i find nothing special in you, yet it is too rude to tell the truth.

When someone ask you if you have any thought. You can always say you have something in mind but need some time to process. Who does not have something in mind? There is ALWAYS something in mind. Even a mentally retarded person is using his brain all the time, only at a different frequency.

When someone ask if you have special feeling to her. You can reply: You are really something. Who is not a thing. Everyone has his/her physical entity, everyone is always "something". We are never nothing. So, say no more "something" to me.

Something is something that we use when we have no answer, refuse to give answer, hesitate to be honest and also when there is actually "something".

talk too much

Talking is an output or result of thinking. Sometimes, you find yourself think too much, so you want to release the burden. You talk. After some time, you finish with all the material or contents that you can think of, you stop talking and start thinking again.

Talking and thinking are two interdependant process. You don't talk if you don't think. You don't think if you don't need to talk. We may or may not be aware that, talking actually takes up a lot of our time everyday. Somehow, it depends on what kind of job you are working.

I always feel terribly exhausted after a long chat. I use all my mind plus full concentration when i talk. It is what i think sincerity. If you really think and talk to me, you would know i can be your truly friend indeed.

Your friends and your objectives

Young can be fun, because changes happen everyday.
When you feel young, you know you have to develop yourself.  You must not be lazy or aimless. Otherwise, you would regret the rest of your life.
Apparently all the "you" and "your" should be replaced by "my" and "I". It is something I can not refuse to agree. Yet, I would not want it to be something haunting me.

Aim, objectives, aspiration are all big words. You would know what is good unless you have attended at least two semesters at Hogwarts by Prof Trelawney. By the end of the courses, you learn the truth that, only gifted person can see what lays beyond present.

For me, non-gifted person. It is hard to aim nor to set goals. Thus it is even harder to find out what courses are good for me, what can help me in future, or even am I good enough in certain ability to cope with future demand.

Sad but true, we need feedback or comment from friends. You need to find out the loophole of present (although you don't know if the loophole mattters in future) I tried to cover my weakness. So dear friends, in order to get me ready for future, I need your sincere, honest comments.

About our dream

I believe all of us were borned with dreams. Some say we even started to dream when we were in our mothers' body. It is not known that, why god made us dream. Yet, it is clear that, without a dream, life might not as vibrant as now.

"The prince and me" is a story where a farm girl from wincosin who has a big ambition to be a medical doctor falls in love to a prince from denmark who strands into her life just like a fairy tale. The dream is a familiar one to all the ladies out there. To be a queen, and marrying a handsome king. However, in reality, i believe she is the who has given the prince a dream contrastingly.

In life, we can not dream too much. When people complain about not having enough sleeping time, most of them have lose the right of dreaming to work pressure. Without a dream,  life can be too real and too miserable. No imagination and no hope. 

we should be generous to ourselves. Give ourselves enough time to sleep and dream. And, more importantly, if possible we should not forget that we can be someone else's dream bearers. We can be someone who makes other's dream comes true.

Favourite food

While i was think what to write everyday, I remembered my friend's advice. It can be something you do everyday. Thus, you have unlimited material to write everyday.

Hmm.. except dreams and frustrating travel, i hardly can think of anything that is fun and interesting to jot down except my lunch. Ever since, the authority has changed all the food operators at the canteen, i find myself enjoy my lunch and anticipate it everyday.

Delicious food, reasonable price. So it is about quality and quantity satisfication. I have no idea, what's wrong with the old operators. It is just that new one is better than old one.
Just to end the story... my lunch is macaroni in soup with shrimp dumplings :) yummy.

A blog about procrastination

I was wondering why we procrastinate.
As we all know, time never comes back. After all, I don't see how time travel will become reality in the next few decades. As we realize the fact, we usually let time goes by without treasuring it.
Blogging or day dreaming are now two things I considered taking my time away and return nothing to me. I am officially wasting my time by writing "waste of time".
Ironically, I continue to type.. at least let me finish the list below:

Why we procrastinate?
A few reasons:

• Lack of confidence of work?
• We don't think by working hard, you will be rewarded
• We started to believe gold will fell from sky
• We think today never ends
• There must be a better time in future to do this..
• No interest in the stuff
• Too impatient, want to move on and so desperate to skip current work

So what are the remedies?

• Be more confident. Remember the americans' can do spirit
• You need to work to get reward... psyco yourself to believe in it
• No, gold only comes from ground
• Today or every other days are only 24 hours = 1440mins
• But too bad, you are always in Present.
• You just have to visualise the goodies you will have by finishing it.
• One step at a time, man.

Since when we blog?

A blog is basically a journal that is available on the web. The activity of updating a blog is "blogging" and someone who keeps a blog is a "blogger." Blogs are typically updated daily using software that allows people with little or no technical background to update and maintain the blog. Postings on a blog are almost always arranged in cronological order with the most recent additions featured most prominantly. .
www.matisse.net/files/glossary.html

I just wonder since when we started to blog or to read blogs. I never had one before. (of course). Since when, while we are thirst for privacy in life, longing to own a kingdom of ourselves, we started to feel lonely and decided to open our heart to others? A dairy that everyone will read. Who would buy the idea 10 years ago, except those who can sell their stories millions of copies. Now, what is wrong with us? The eagerness to share our mind? or it is simply a reaction to loneliness.