Time flies

It shocked me when I found out that it has been more than 0.5 month that I didn't update here. Time is passing by faster than anything. Faster than it take me to think of something to bla here.

I was busy with a lot of office procedures, application, routines, and many other so-call black and white ways lately. Can't even remember how many signatures i have put, can't remember how much quotation i get. All these had made me down to the place that i can not work efficiently. I was worried.

Worry about everything that can goes wrong. Even for very standard procedure, thing can go wrong, if it wants to. I know I am worried about something that out of my control. Something that i shouldn't think of at the first place.

Yet, if all the worries can go away, then i won't be writing this part.

The next thing i know after i have a satisfying answer from previous problem, is new coming problem. Life is not like wind surfing, the wave has not stopped at all. It keeps me challenged all the time.

May be it is the way i interpret them. All the waves are meant to be fun but not worrying stuff.
When will I start to learn to take on all these stuff and enjoy ? I wonder.

Something..

It is a miracle word. It refers to all things. It means nothing. Something special can means you have everything so special, it is just i could not spell it out loud. Something special can also means i find nothing special in you, yet it is too rude to tell the truth.

When someone ask you if you have any thought. You can always say you have something in mind but need some time to process. Who does not have something in mind? There is ALWAYS something in mind. Even a mentally retarded person is using his brain all the time, only at a different frequency.

When someone ask if you have special feeling to her. You can reply: You are really something. Who is not a thing. Everyone has his/her physical entity, everyone is always "something". We are never nothing. So, say no more "something" to me.

Something is something that we use when we have no answer, refuse to give answer, hesitate to be honest and also when there is actually "something".

talk too much

Talking is an output or result of thinking. Sometimes, you find yourself think too much, so you want to release the burden. You talk. After some time, you finish with all the material or contents that you can think of, you stop talking and start thinking again.

Talking and thinking are two interdependant process. You don't talk if you don't think. You don't think if you don't need to talk. We may or may not be aware that, talking actually takes up a lot of our time everyday. Somehow, it depends on what kind of job you are working.

I always feel terribly exhausted after a long chat. I use all my mind plus full concentration when i talk. It is what i think sincerity. If you really think and talk to me, you would know i can be your truly friend indeed.

Your friends and your objectives

Young can be fun, because changes happen everyday.
When you feel young, you know you have to develop yourself.  You must not be lazy or aimless. Otherwise, you would regret the rest of your life.
Apparently all the "you" and "your" should be replaced by "my" and "I". It is something I can not refuse to agree. Yet, I would not want it to be something haunting me.

Aim, objectives, aspiration are all big words. You would know what is good unless you have attended at least two semesters at Hogwarts by Prof Trelawney. By the end of the courses, you learn the truth that, only gifted person can see what lays beyond present.

For me, non-gifted person. It is hard to aim nor to set goals. Thus it is even harder to find out what courses are good for me, what can help me in future, or even am I good enough in certain ability to cope with future demand.

Sad but true, we need feedback or comment from friends. You need to find out the loophole of present (although you don't know if the loophole mattters in future) I tried to cover my weakness. So dear friends, in order to get me ready for future, I need your sincere, honest comments.

About our dream

I believe all of us were borned with dreams. Some say we even started to dream when we were in our mothers' body. It is not known that, why god made us dream. Yet, it is clear that, without a dream, life might not as vibrant as now.

"The prince and me" is a story where a farm girl from wincosin who has a big ambition to be a medical doctor falls in love to a prince from denmark who strands into her life just like a fairy tale. The dream is a familiar one to all the ladies out there. To be a queen, and marrying a handsome king. However, in reality, i believe she is the who has given the prince a dream contrastingly.

In life, we can not dream too much. When people complain about not having enough sleeping time, most of them have lose the right of dreaming to work pressure. Without a dream,  life can be too real and too miserable. No imagination and no hope. 

we should be generous to ourselves. Give ourselves enough time to sleep and dream. And, more importantly, if possible we should not forget that we can be someone else's dream bearers. We can be someone who makes other's dream comes true.

Favourite food

While i was think what to write everyday, I remembered my friend's advice. It can be something you do everyday. Thus, you have unlimited material to write everyday.

Hmm.. except dreams and frustrating travel, i hardly can think of anything that is fun and interesting to jot down except my lunch. Ever since, the authority has changed all the food operators at the canteen, i find myself enjoy my lunch and anticipate it everyday.

Delicious food, reasonable price. So it is about quality and quantity satisfication. I have no idea, what's wrong with the old operators. It is just that new one is better than old one.
Just to end the story... my lunch is macaroni in soup with shrimp dumplings :) yummy.

A blog about procrastination

I was wondering why we procrastinate.
As we all know, time never comes back. After all, I don't see how time travel will become reality in the next few decades. As we realize the fact, we usually let time goes by without treasuring it.
Blogging or day dreaming are now two things I considered taking my time away and return nothing to me. I am officially wasting my time by writing "waste of time".
Ironically, I continue to type.. at least let me finish the list below:

Why we procrastinate?
A few reasons:

• Lack of confidence of work?
• We don't think by working hard, you will be rewarded
• We started to believe gold will fell from sky
• We think today never ends
• There must be a better time in future to do this..
• No interest in the stuff
• Too impatient, want to move on and so desperate to skip current work

So what are the remedies?

• Be more confident. Remember the americans' can do spirit
• You need to work to get reward... psyco yourself to believe in it
• No, gold only comes from ground
• Today or every other days are only 24 hours = 1440mins
• But too bad, you are always in Present.
• You just have to visualise the goodies you will have by finishing it.
• One step at a time, man.

Since when we blog?

A blog is basically a journal that is available on the web. The activity of updating a blog is "blogging" and someone who keeps a blog is a "blogger." Blogs are typically updated daily using software that allows people with little or no technical background to update and maintain the blog. Postings on a blog are almost always arranged in cronological order with the most recent additions featured most prominantly. .
www.matisse.net/files/glossary.html

I just wonder since when we started to blog or to read blogs. I never had one before. (of course). Since when, while we are thirst for privacy in life, longing to own a kingdom of ourselves, we started to feel lonely and decided to open our heart to others? A dairy that everyone will read. Who would buy the idea 10 years ago, except those who can sell their stories millions of copies. Now, what is wrong with us? The eagerness to share our mind? or it is simply a reaction to loneliness.